Friday, April 18, 2014

Mama Artist

Madre del Mundo

Mama and Baby
After 25 years of being a Mom, Mommy, Mama and now grandma, I realized I had never expressed this part of my life artistically. What does a Mama look like in my world? How does she express herself? How does she handle the stresses of motherhood and mothering?

Well, at this point in time, I don't have many answers. I have just finished painting two "Mama" paintings (see above). It's a start. I want to continue on with more paintings on the theme of motherhood and see where it takes me.

Starting a new path and continuing on with others keeps me happy and engaged. Its like life. There's always a new path that comes your way and you have to face the fears and take the first step.

Friday, April 11, 2014

Madre del Mundo - Mother of the World - new painting

I am on hyper mode for blog posting this past week. Feel like there's been a lot of thoughts and creative energy running through me Putting it down in writing helps gets these thoughts out and make them a reality.

This week, I worked on a smaller painting titled, "Madre del Mundo", Mother of the World. It is for submission to an exhibit in Oakland called Honoring the Journey of Motherhood. In thinking about this theme. I felt that my own style of mothering and motherhood has been of course to nurture and guide my own children and grandchildren.I've found there is also another side of mothering and motherhood. That is with individuals in the world who need the compassion and guidance of a mother For whatever reason, the compassion of mothering is missing from their lives.

The painting, "Madre del Mundo" is meant to indicate that many mothers are here on earth to nurture, offer compassion for those in need - relation or not. For myself, I feel this aspect of motherhood deeply. It guides me through my daily encounters regularly. Therefore, in my eyes, to be a mother means to be a Madre del Mundo, Mother of the World.

Here are some pics of the painting.

p.s. Any inquires about this painting or others http://artspan.org/artist/martharodriguez. don't hesitate to contact me at estudiomartita@gmail.com

Thursday, April 10, 2014

Wednesday, April 9, 2014

In Remission 3 years, 4 months, 7 days

I have been in remission from Leukemia - Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia - for three years, four months and seven days....and I am counting.

For those uninitiated to the throes of being a cancer patient, perhaps the question is , "Why bother counting? Why not just move on? You conquered cancer and life goes on." The simplistic answer to this complex question is this: Cancer never leaves. It might sleep, stay in remission for a few years, then  perhaps return. This could be a short respite from the disease or you could be granted a longer time until its return. If you're terribly lucky, perhaps it will never return. Remission, however, does not mean you are cured.

Merrian Webster provides the definition of remission as:

: a state or period during which the symptoms of a disease are abated; remission
 after treatment

In other words, remission is a period of time where cancer is reduced in amount, degree, or intensity. So, to describe this state of living in my own terms, I am surviving while carrying inside me a sleeping giant. I don't know when and if he will awaken. He is always with me. He is silent for now and perhaps forever but he is always with me.

This sounds so scary. In fact writing this blog post frightens me. Why am I writing this if facing this fact brings me so much fear? It is because I feel that in order to conquer this fear, I have to face it. I must admit to myself and others that yes, I am frightened. I think about my Leukemia diagnosis every day.

There is a big YET here. Yet, facing this fear, writing about, talking about my fear of Leukemia returning also strengthens me. I am weakening the fear by admitting it. This weakening feels like I've taken some of the pain out of my chest and I can breathe more freely. I can see more clearly. I can look at my surroundings and feel grateful for my family, friends. I can love my dog Chip more completely and be grateful he was at the SPCA when we were ready to adopt again.

My expression of fear and pain frees me to enjoy the present. I am looking out the window and see blue, blue sky. I sit in my house and enjoy the light through the windows, the photos and the paintings. on the walls. I feel at peace. I have been given this day as a gift. I've said that so often but living life through each day is the best description of my life since Leukemia.

Today was a day for checking in with my reality. Living, grateful.

One life. One day.

Monday, March 3, 2014

Mujeres de Maiz Ofrendas of the Flesh, 2014

Drove down to L.A. this past weekend to deliver paintings for the Mujeres de Maiz, 
Ofrendas of the Flesh exhibit. Husband Gary and I made our way to Rosemead and
made our delivery. Hadn't done a weekend L.A. trip in years. We managed to see family. We 
stayed with my sister Diane and brother in law J.D. in Echo Park. On our way in we stopped in 
Northridge to see my sister-in-law Ann and niece Kaitlin. We also attended a FAB art exhibit at 
SPARC Art in Venice CA called "Loss, Memory and Recovery: Dwora Fried & Linda Vallejo. Saw a play preview that my sister Diane was reviewing called HOPE by Evelina Fernandez. Diane and I also
 got in some majorthrift store shopping at a FAB store in Culver City. On Sunday it was back to 
San Francisco. WHEW!!!!!!

Here's the paintings that will be on exhibit!
dance in green
relish the apples of life
butt is big enough...

Here's the Mujeres de Maiz, Ofrendas of the Flesh exhibit info:

Where: Tonali Studio 4539 E Cesar Chavez Avenue,  Los Angeles, CA 90022  (323) 793-7609  
When:  March 15 opening, until March 30th, 2014
Time:  6pm for opening, call  (323) 793-7609 for gallery times;

Hope those in the Los Angeles area can stop in for the opening or during the two weeks exhibit will be up. For others who will be in the area from March 15th to the 30th, please try to stop by Tonali Studio to view the exhibit in celebration of Womyn in Mind - a celebration of collectives and organizations across the Eastside of Los Angeles for Women's History Month.

Thursday, February 20, 2014

new mixed media self portrait: "I Have a Voice."

Been working in the studio this past week on a new mixed media collage. It is for a possible submission to the Chico Art Center 8th Annual Contemporary Woman Juried Exhibition May 16-June 13, 2014. The Chico Art Center asked that your work be based on the following quote:

“It took me quite a long time to develop a voice, and now that I have it, I am not going to be silent.” – Madeleine Albright

This quote really appealed to me. I feel like Madeline Albright could have speaking to me directly in my post Leukemia treatment, in remission state. When reading through the quote, I thought that I could be the one having a voice, showing an image of myself with a word escaping from my mouth and being surrounded by works that are synonyms for voice: speak, say, feeling, articulate, declare, view,communicate, etc. It is still a work in progress but happy with the results so far.

"I Have a Voice."

"I Have a Voice."
Taking some time off until next week and will continue work on Monday afternoon.

Celebrating "Girl's Weekend" this weekend. It's a now 5 year gathering of we four women friends who have know each other for 30 years. Lots of changes go on in 30 years and we celebrate being together through it all!

Have a great weekend everyone.